the unchanging quesiton
I almost forget what happened when If first stepped onto this land. It seems such a long time ago. With the help of the Google photos, I realize that it is the fourth year to be in New Zealand.
Yesterday, I walked down stairs and met a friend who is working in University. From our chatting, I realized that his wife had just lost the job in University. She was once a research fellow, but not any more now due to the lack of research fee. A piece of grief was slowly penetrating into my heart, the feeling of the uncertain future has bothered me quiet a lot these days. The recession of the economy happens everywhere. Now I have the sensation of the number of the unemployment.
Just a few weeks ago, I picked up CCNA study again. The passed two years research made me deviating the reality far far away, it seemed I was living in a dream. Now it is the time to go back to the reality. I need to make clear on what I should do in the future, and be an expert in this area. Naively, I thought I would finish my PhD and would find a chance to be a lecturer in University. Then I realize this is quiet MISSION IMPOSSIBLE.
The earthquake is another big event for the life of a lot of people. This contributed another uncertainty to my future life. Sister-in-Law called my wife and suggested us to move to USA. Father-in-law even wrote several emails to prove the life in USA is better with a long list of the cheaper food price. Definitely, he did not mention about the other potential risks.
Not everything goes worse. I made a phone call to China to one of Miranda’s friends yesterday. Surprisingly found out that her family will move to New Zealand soon. Miranda can meet her best childhood friend again, here in New Zealand. That stirred a ripple into my heart.
For me, the only thing that does not change is the question haunting me everyday: the future?